dreams

I've started hallucinating recently when waking up, it's usually ominous figures staring at me or things buzzing over my head and once my open my eyes turning into insect like shadows that run against the wall and immediately disappear. Sometimes scenarios play out, someone running into my room and talking to me, or just simply me thinking I woke up before I truly did, someone calling out my name or laughing. I have a tiny bit of autonomy in these, I can jolt upwards only to find myself laying on the pillow in the same dream again, I can move my hand a few centimetres or touch something only for it to disappear, or I can be paralysed unable to do anything but think. Today I dreamed of someone visiting me, not someone I like, quite the opposite, but someone who was laughing perhaps mocking me. I sleep on an elevated surface, lead to by a stairway. While heading down with what could be described as mild dread, I stumbled upon an object which I could not comprehend. It was vividly red with fractal like reflections stretching for what seemed like a distance between a dagger and a spear, though constantly changing. I picked it up. When I got to the "visitors" I pushed them off the stairs and watched them fall with it in my hand. There was no specific amount of time between this fragment and the next, I woke up once again, there was a pair of elderly hands next to my head, a feminine hand holding the somewhat bigger hand. The gentle wrinkled hand wore a golden ring with a rectangular Black obelisk in the middle, it was a bit hypnotising. As I went closer to join the holding of hands, they slowly shifted towards a single open inviting palm, perhaps I wanted to do that intentionally as I was somewhat aware at the time. When I touched it, it dissipated like it was made from layers of colourful fog. I woke up.